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The more of this or less of this or is there any difference
Or are we just holding onto the things we don't have anymore.
Sometimes time doesn't heal
Just stand still while we fall
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Saturday, January 20, 2007, 22:08

Life don't work my way. the way i think it will.
Have you ever given so much of you.
but you don't get anything back?
you think you've contributed and done so much.
but no one even say a small thank you.
It would have meant so much.
You get discouraged.
you don't know what to do
but to sulk there.
It doesnt work that way.
Stand up and fight.
For your rights.
My rights.
are mine.
I should have fought for it.

so what?

no one recognizes my effort.
the nominate everyone.
except me.
all i got was a small title.
and a small useless job.
of just wasting my smses and money.
passing down what was passed down.
they don't give a damn.
About me.

Maybe it's a way God is telling me to let go.
Take a break.
away from everything.
take a break.
Rest.
get charged.
recharged.
go back and serve him better.

But i'm invisible.
It doesnt make a difference whether i'm there or not.
Even if i do exist.
No one will notice.
will they?
will you?
I hope God will.


My name is just in as a title.
but was there anything done?
no.
not even by her.
she just went up to crap.
not knowing what is reality in the real world.
Her fantasy.
Her dreams.
Wake up.
It's not that cheap.
It's not like this in the real world.
It's expensive.
and they want two designs.
try calculating how much they cost.
i tink your fingers wont be enough.
try using someone else's toes.

Dont crap.
Think before you talk.
Don't add my name.
When you're the one who's crapping.
& they'll come after me when things go wrong.
& everyone shifts the blame on me.
I didnt say anything.
You heard it from her.
Not me.
I'm not her.
Shes not me.
Don't come looking for me.


When things screw up, you look for me.
When things turn out well, you take all the credit.

That's always the case.
Since we were little.
I was to blame.
for not standing up for myself.

but have anyone thought that what lies behind the pretty face?
the pretty screen that covers all.
a pack of lies.
Have you ever thought about the gang of people supporting her?
What bout me?
I was left to stand alone.
by myself.

I had to turn my back and walk away.
run away.
from the scary things.
no one to protect me.
I was alone.
Hurt.
Broken.
You had all the friends.
you din think about me.
At all.
and yet
the only thing you knew was to get your hands on whatever I had.
Thinking i had more than you.
But have you looked at your collection?
you have more.




the grass is always greener.
on the other side.



hurt/ broken/
that's me.




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