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The more of this or less of this or is there any difference
Or are we just holding onto the things we don't have anymore.
Sometimes time doesn't heal
Just stand still while we fall
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Tuesday, June 26, 2007, 16:27

SOMEONE ASKED ME : " You don't have people to go out meh? why must it be me? "

it got me thinking.


Do i have people to go out with? hmm. let me count. WAIT. my mind is blank. WHO? even if i ask those who i have thought of to keep me company, they're too busy. some will be doing homework. some will be out with their friends who book her earlier than me.

who has been there for me?
who IS STILL there for me?
practically no one i think.
it's so pathetic.

since young, i'm been THE LONE RANGER. i'm the only child. no one has time for me. People around me come and go. no one has stayed beside me and just be there for me. Memories were all i have. all i yearn to keep with me. i guess like my mum said, my friends only ask me out to play. when it comes to study, they study quietly without letting me know.. leaving the image that they don't study much too. thus, all around me are friends who live behind masks and bring me down everytime.



who is there for me?
who has been there silently beside me supporting me and sharing and giving me nice memories?
please tell me who you are.
cause i'm feeling helpless, at a loss..




in a cold dark corner... there i am.
trying to keep myself comforted and warm.
who will be there to give me a hug when i'm cold and helpless ,
pull me up on my feet when i cant stand up,
catch me when i fall?
will you tell me if you are there?
i need reassurance.
i need a lot more.





Sleeping awake
and awake when I'm sleeping
I've got a dry kind of thirst when drenched
On sunny days
all I can see is a shadow
and I'm not above being under

I'm at the brink
though I know that I'm empty
I always hide
when its my turn to seek
my only believe is not to have faith in believing
before I begin I'm over

Broken off again
and I'm only not lonely when I'm lonely by myself
Numb in pain again
I always backtrack forward
cause all in all,
I'm Disconnected

Quietly loud while I'm noisily silent
keep holding my breath
while I'm trying to breath
swimming against all of my waves and rapids
I only win when I'm losing

I just wanna live my life sedated
Cause I love driving myself away
dysfunctionally sane
don't give a damn
I cant comprehend what I understand
Disconnected
broken off again
and I'm only not lonely when I'm lonely by myself
numb in pain again
I always backtrack forward
cause all I know
I'm Disconnected







someone. come help me.
will those who care for me kindly tag? thanks.




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