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The more of this or less of this or is there any difference
Or are we just holding onto the things we don't have anymore.
Sometimes time doesn't heal
Just stand still while we fall
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Sunday, May 04, 2008, 00:41

I just realised I've passed my 370 post.



HOW MANY TIMES, HOW MANY LIES.
you might have treated that person as a good friend.
but it turns out, you weren't invited but instead, some other people are.

xiaojunn's TOO TRUSTING.
(yea. I am. )
so should xiaojun not trust anymore?
NO.
xiao jun trusts, and she gets broken, let down, betrayed.
stop telling her she's emo.
she knows she is.
she can't help it.
(yea. it's YOUR fault.)
It's cause of people around her that she feels this way.

everybody wears a mask.
(where's mine? I should whip it out. I should just keep it on, until I find people who really cares for me.)
everybody builds walls instead of bridges, you once said.
xiaojun should change.
she should be stronger and resilent.
and most importantly,
she needs stronger walls to keep her broken heart and soul less broken.





xiaojun is breaking down.
shes crying really badly and the last time she did it was at xiujuan laoshi's funeral (not as badly, actually) .
she needs some people to comfort her and talk her around.
she needs a TRUE friend to comfort her, talk some sense into her.
she doesnt need a sucker to be in her life.
GET OUT, RIGHT NOW. she says.
Don't come around and pretend you care.

the worse thing is that you pretend you care, and then, you turned out to be the one making my life miserable, she yells.
she needs a break from the pretentious world.
she needs a good break, a clean break away.
she needs to leave the world.
I'm getting really really really really really really really suicidal. she whispers to you in your ear.
please don't let it fall on deaf ears.

she will take someone's advice to start hist tmr and sleep early tonight.
she will most probably end up crying herself to sleep tonight.



GOODNIGHT.

please, God.

Heal me.

Comfort the broken soul.

She wants to be with you.

Let a car just knock her down tomorrow.

She doesn't want to live.
Let her say her sorrys and thank yous and leave this world with/without regrets.





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