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The more of this or less of this or is there any difference
Or are we just holding onto the things we don't have anymore.
Sometimes time doesn't heal
Just stand still while we fall
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Wednesday, April 08, 2009, 20:55

hello;

I am feeling really pathetic now. I have thoughts of backing out from tomorrow's movie marathon.

I realised that I have no safety net to fall back upon in MJ. I realised I don't have any close friends there. I don't have friends who are willing to get away from their comfort groups to keep me company. The people I have can just abandon me to be alone by myself any time, any second. That's why I don't feel the safety net. Maybe afterall, I'm just a loner.
Looking back, the last friend I had who was willing to leave his comfort group to be with me was Terence. During the demo lecture, I will never forget that grin on his face he had when he walked in. I really miss him and wonder how we got to where we are now.

I feel really sorry for myself.
I don't feel safe and secure in MJ. How?

Tricia got into temasek poly.
I'm really sad, even though it's only for this short period of time which we managed to interact. I will seriously miss her and remember how I always confused myself with her and Sam.

I just smsed jerk. wth.

Anyway, really gotta do my PI now.
I'm dead.

-xoxo.

p.s. I really miss the other six. I just need time to talk to you all, joke around and it'll be really nice.
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